Tuesday, January 29, 2008

My Hero and My Heart




I'm a lucky Mama. I know a lot of people who may find my blog by accident or by searches may read my family's story and think it tragic. But I don't, not really. I've really been doing some serious soul searching these past few months. The kind of search a person does when their lives take them in a completely unexpected direction. And I have am much more at peace with how things have unfolded.

My daughter was born at 27 weeks. My water broke at 22 weeks. I was told she would not live. But we proved those doctors wrong! As a team we are unstoppable! Every morning when she wakes up, every minute when she is running from a diaper change, every goodnight kiss reminds me of the incredible battle we won to have her here with us. I am so grateful for her life, her smile, her love. She is my Heart.



And my son. My son. He is nothing less than a Badass. Born at 28 weeks measuring a huge 3 pounds 7 ounces and 17.5 inches long, he is still a BIG Boy. William suffered extensive brain injury and his optic nerves are malformed. Many who have not expected much from him have been impressed by his drive and craftiness. My Mister has learned to overcome some of his spasticity and is gaining function due to sheer determination. Once he could not bring his hands to his mouth. Now, he can! Once he could not hold a toy at all. Now, he can! Once he was expected to have no mobility at all, ever.... Here is the big one... are you ready.... ???... He is starting to combat crawl. I wish there were words to adequetly describe how hard Mister works to do these thing. How he tries over and over and over... he gets so frustrates and "yells" about the things he can't quite do. But he is learning. What a wonderful thing to be able to witness first hand- the sheer power of determination. Driving forward, achieving the unachievable. My little guy. My Hero.

13 comments:

Lisa said...

Wonderful words, momma! Big hugs and kisses!

Carolie said...

Lisa- This is so moving! You truly are an inspiration!

Adam & Andrew said...

Way to go William!! That's fantastic!

Johnette said...

Sniff, Sniff...
Those are two amazing kids that are so lucky to have such a great Mamma!

Amanda said...

Way to go! They are amazing and you are an amazing mommy!

23wktwins'mommy said...

Beautiful! I just posted something kinda similar and then came to check you out and bam, the tears are back...but tears of joy...tears of thankfulness, and tears of pride. Our kids are amazing huh?

Kellie said...

Such a true and touching post. You and M&W are inspirational.

Logan said...

Lisa- Those babies are so cute!!! I cant believe how big William is getting ad=nd how great he is doing

Jessica said...

Wow Lisa. Thank you for that. You have 2 very lucky babies... you are a WONDERFUL Mommy!!!

Jessica said...

Great post Lisa- made me sniffle a little. You are a great mom with 2 great kids. Keep it up!

Monnie said...

One thing I've learned being the mom of two preemies myself, is that they are determined little buggers. Don't listen to anyone about what he can do, he can do what he can do, and I'm sure with your love and care, he will be doing more than anyone ever expected.

Kelly said...

Aww Lisa you are such a wonderful mommie and God has truly blessed you with the most beautiful and amazing babies. You have every right to be proud of your blessings!

I love you and miss you
kelly (martin) Sealy

Anonymous said...

I have to confess I've been reading your blog now for several months and have never commmented. Your entry about your son and how others might view your situation has really moved me. I am so amazed and proud of the things he's doing--that must have been quite a moment when you first saw him combat crawl. I will write more later about my own situation...I just thought I'd better say something because I have been silent so long yet stealing inspiration from you so I thought I'd better acknowledge myself.